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Sometimes on a Sunday evening you end up holding a lady up by the soles of her ft.
I gripped Stevie Escobedo, 33, by her white sneaker. Beside me, Anthony Alston, 53, cradled her different shoe. He breathed the counts of the routine we had simply rehearsed in pantomime. I couldn’t bear in mind the counts, so I mimicked Alston, conserving one eye on him and the opposite on Escobedo, who, from my vantage level, was all leg. Her torso and head poked out from above her knee. I’d by no means seen an individual from this attitude. “That’s enjoyable,” I assumed. Equally, nobody had ever trusted me with their life like this. And, ought to they’ve?
“Six, seven, eight,” Alston referred to as. We raised Escobedo up, then down. My fingers turned white from squeezing her shoe so onerous. Any wobble and she or he’d topple. Someway, she dismounted in a single piece.
Le Carr, 32, who had been recognizing from the again as an aptly named “again spot,” turned to me. “Are you able to stand up there?”
I shrugged. Why not?
For my newest exploration into Seattle subcultures, I hoisted myself onto the shoulders of Cheer Seattle’s “queerleaders” to determine what this majority-LGBTQIA nonprofit was all about and to find out the origin of the pep in its step.
In doing so, I met a bunch of individuals altering a traditionally gendered sport by stripping away its extra restrictive guidelines and stereotypes. What’s left behind is all the weather of cheerleading glossed over in pop-culture: the positivity, the keenness, the teamwork, the belief.
Fashioned in 2014, Cheer Seattle is a part of the 14-team nationwide Satisfaction Cheerleading Affiliation. The group goals to permit LGBTQ+ members and their allies to carry out whereas elevating cash for good causes and consciousness in regards to the queer group.
Cheer Seattle hosts three groups: a stunt workforce (Sapphire), a dance workforce (Emerald), and a manufacturing workforce (Diamond), so anybody who’s fascinated with cheer has a spot. They cheer at sporting occasions, they volunteer at fundraisers and races, they usually carry out at Satisfaction. This 12 months, Cheer Seattle’s raised funds will go towards The Lavender Rights Venture, a Washington-based group centered on Black trans girls.
“It [feels] like utilizing my powers for good,” Alston stated. “Going to Satisfaction occasions 12 months after 12 months is one factor, however being within the parade and elevating cash for an area charity is absolutely inspiring and motivating.”
Alston was considered one of three individuals who began Cheer Seattle 10 years in the past. The group’s origin, nonetheless, begins in San Francisco.
Alston joined Cheer San Francisco, the primary of the PCA groups, again in 2001. A homosexual Seattle transplant adrift in a post-dot-com-bust and post-9/11-world, he wanted group. As a lifelong self-proclaimed band geek marching on soccer fields subsequent to cheer squads, he stated he’d all the time harbored a need to take up a pair of pom-poms of his personal.
“I all the time noticed the cheerleaders, and I used to be like, ‘At some point, that might be cool,’” he stated. “However I assumed I used to be too outdated.”
When Cheer San Francisco began recruiting again spots, he joined.
“Sporting that uniform was superior,” he stated. ‘I’m getting chills simply telling you about it as a result of it brings again a flood of reminiscences.”
He led the San Francisco Satisfaction parade for six years, driving his truck geared up with blaring freight practice horns and main 300 cheerleaders from San Francisco, Los Angeles, and Sacramento, all doing stunts alongside the best way.
“Trying down Market Road and everyone seems to be ready for us to start out the parade, the anticipation, the power, the joy, and then you definitely’d see basket tosses! Basket tosses! Basket tosses!” He stated, gesturing together with his arms, his fingernails painted blue and inexperienced. “Whenever you’re performing, you’re connecting together with your group, you’re connecting with the crowds, you’re hyping them up, you’re giving them one thing.”
As he will get older, performing takes extra of a toll on his physique—“I’ve sacrificed each my biceps to cheer,” he stated, but he nonetheless can’t give it up.
“There’s no different excessive that satisfies me that a lot,” he stated.
When he moved again to Seattle, he knew he wanted to start out a PCA workforce. So he did. Now, whereas performing nonetheless offers him that top, he additionally derives satisfaction from watching folks develop due to this factor he began.
“What they have been getting out of the expertise—individuals who had by no means cheered earlier than, who needed to fly, who needed to base, who needed to bop and carry out—they acquired these experiences via Cheer Seattle,” he stated. “I’m glad to facilitate that. It’s like a proud papa second.”
A Gayer Excessive College Do-Over
Escobedo just lately moved to Seattle from Colorado after realizing she was queer. Decided to discover that, she made the tough option to half methods along with her then-husband, who continues to be her finest pal, and department out on her personal.
“I used to be attempting to determine who I’m as an grownup, as a human,” she stated. She discovered Cheer Seattle final October.
Escobedo cheered in highschool, however she hadn’t picked up any pom-poms since. Selecting them up once more as an grownup felt like a highschool do-over–besides, this time means gayer.
“I positively really feel like I’ve been going via my queer adolescence this complete time,” she stated. “I’m reliving highschool in such a distinct area.”
As a late-blooming queer particular person, she says issues just like the act of coming into your sexuality throughout the prime of maturity can typically be tough and lonely.
“It’s tough simply because it was the primary time, because it was in highschool; the pains, the awkwardness, the discomfort … Even coming onto a cheerleading workforce and being 33—that’s in all probability not essentially the most comfy factor, however the extra you’ll be able to reside in that discomfort, the extra you’re going to expertise life,” she stated.
Rediscovering a sport she beloved alongside a workforce filled with fellow LGBTQ+ folks helped her develop, and now she desires to assist Cheer Seattle change and develop, too.
“All the things has been handed down in cheerleading,” she stated, talking of the traditions and the established order of the game. “However we’re the queer group, we’re the queer group in Seattle,” she snapped her fingers. “Let’s cunt it up!”
Binary Bustin’
Because the pandemic, Cheer Seattle has gone via some large adjustments of its personal. One large change has been round fliers.
Spencer Watson, 30, got here out as homosexual in Boise, Idaho when he was 12. Proper round that point, he joined his first cheerleading workforce. He was the one boy, however he didn’t care. He fell in love with cheerleading and it modified his life, each personally and geographically.
He left Idaho after senior 12 months to affix an all-star cheer workforce in Kent, Washington.
“The driving force [for my move] was Seattle; like, I’m gonna bloom as an enormous ol’ homosexual boy right here, not in Idaho,” he stated.
All through his 18 years of performing cheer and his 15 years of teaching it, Watson, now a coach at Cheer Seattle, by no means flew, the place in cheerleading the place you’re tossed within the air like just a little sack of potatoes with pointed toes. Regardless of educating the ability, Watson by no means tried it. He wasn’t allowed.
Conventional cheerleading harbors a stereotype the place “boys don’t fly,” solely girls fly. “That’s their position,” Watson stated. “It’s this binary gender position that I’m not right here for.”
When he first began teaching at Cheer Seattle 4 years in the past, he tried to vary the flier guidelines. Even in a progressive, boundary-pushing group, it took years for the change to catch on universally versus on a case-by-case foundation. Within the final 4 years, that’s modified.
“It’s been such an inspiration for all the opposite members who had needed to fly however didn’t really feel they’d not solely the gender to fly however the physique sort to fly,” Watson stated. “There are such a lot of different elements that play a task in flying than weight, or, fuck, your gender.”
Tony Thompson, 37, by no means cheered in his life earlier than becoming a member of Cheer Seattle. Now, as a performer, he desires to do all of it.
“I’m primarily a backspot, I assist elevate the flier into the air,” Thompson stated. “However, I’m attempting to be a triple risk. I additionally need to be a base, and I additionally need to fly subsequent season. The fliers get a lot of the face time, and having a queer male flier on the market can be actually good. I’m attempting to convey extra illustration into the air.”
He continued: “I’m not attempting to throw a Showgirls second, however I’ll do a Showgirls second.”
All physique varieties and all genders can fly at Cheer Seattle. Thompson says that Cheer Seattle is the “most queer-diverse” of the cheerleading groups.
“We push that envelope,” he stated.
For the Enbys
Talking of breaking cheerleading norms, Cheer Seattle just lately began providing gender impartial uniform choices.
“We attempt to get away from the binary,” Thompson stated. “We are able to put on no matter we need to put on.” Possibly that’s a skirt, perhaps that’s leggings.
It’s a technique of dismantling guidelines round a sport which, for many years, was been constructed on norms round femininity.
Carr, who I initially met after they taught me easy methods to powerlift, grew up cheerleading at a extremely aggressive stage earlier than an harm ended their cheer profession.
“I clearly actually worth the competitors and the sportiness of it, however I additionally actually struggled with a whole lot of the sentiments of belonging, no less than after I did it again in Georgia,” Carr stated
Carr got here out as nonbinary within the years since they final did a again handspring.
Final summer time, they discovered Cheer Seattle after drunkenly googling “queer cheerleading” at Queer/Bar. They despatched in an software at 2 am and have been with the squad ever since.
Carr described Cheer Seattle as “a means of cheerleading that has all of the positives.”
The workforce serves as a foil to the stereotypical notion of cheerleading; you already know, the imply ladies, the cliques, the drama.
“It’s completely not intimidating and it isn’t unique,” Carr stated. “It doesn’t matter in the event you’ve had 12-plus years of expertise or by no means cheered earlier than in your life.”
They instructed me this, after which–true to their phrase–they coaxed me to fly.
On High of the Pyramid
I gripped Carr’s and Alton’s shoulders. With my arms straight, I leaned all my weight onto their our bodies and pulled myself right into a ball, my knees stage with their ears.
All I might concentrate on was the considered inflicting them ache.
“Am I hurting you?” I requested.
They each instructed me no, I used to be effective. Beneath me, their our bodies braced. They felt strong. This was why they have been referred to as bases.
“Three and 4 and…” somebody–perhaps everybody–counted, and I swung my ft into every of their arms. They held me aloft. “What the hell, what the hell,” I assumed. How was I going to face up?
A distinct particular person referred to as: “Hold your arms by your sides and straighten your arms!” As somebody most comfy throughout the confines of guidelines and directions, I obeyed fortunately.
Then, regardless that I knew it was coming, I utterly forgot the half the place Carr and Alston would heft me up whereas I stood on their arms. Unexpectedly, they propelled me upward so I used to be towering above the College of Acrobatics and New Circus Arts’ apply space. My abdomen dropped, my coronary heart fluttered, everybody appeared up at me whereas I appeared down on them. This was a brand new perspective, too. I stretched my arms up, conserving my physique as straight and grounded as I might.
I stretched my arms out extensive, my fists curled loosely like cinnamon rolls, like a cheerleader.
Round me, the remainder of the squad practiced reputable basket tosses, throwing their fliers into the air and catching them.
Regardless of the brand new heights, I by no means apprehensive about falling. The workforce beneath me, most of whom I’d simply met, would catch me–I used to be certain of that. The belief required for this sport appeared better than the athleticism, I assumed. And but, relying on these folks felt like second nature.
Gently, the bases lowered me down and eased me right into a dismount.
As I stood on the bottom, my physique vibrated. I concurrently felt like I’d simply walked off a rollercoaster and like I’d simply chugged a espresso on an empty abdomen. My head swam, my pulse raced. Everybody round me patted me on the again, showering me with compliments. I might see how cheerleading might grow to be an habit.
“We’ll train you tumbling subsequent,” Carr stated.